Seeking REFUGE from the 'Unknown'

Reality can be difficult for a lot of people throughout life, but when your reality is only 'real' based only by others terms who in other words turn their nose up to MY reality that is almost too unreal for me to digest, starts giving you a false sense of security and I guess why I feel so strongly about writing a book... "Insanity Became My Reality" before I block out what others can't accept in order to placate them. Really have a need for my own sanity to 'share' the REALITY that so many can't accept. Only problem is, I have been 'free' for months, actually over a year since 'Sherman' stopped controlling what I could and could not to... It's already getting buried in the part of my brain that at one time could not escape but time has a way of erasing 'CRAZY' from your brain in order to move forward, I guess, or just too much UGLY to store anywhere in your brain when you fought so hard for almost a full 3 years to escape far away from.

Sherman's Introduction

Have had ALL my computers (7), printers (4) & numerous cell phones viciously compromised ever since my Dell literally got hacked into right before my eyes 4/2010 when my Dell laptop shutdown (it had been acting possessed for a couple months so nothing would surprise me) EXCEPT what I witnessed 5 min later. My Dell had a mind of it's own & guess when it shut down before me, I became paralyzed, not with fear, but curiosity as to what trick was it going to perform for me this time.  I had no idea what I was about to witness was going to be the beginning of a very twisted person who fed his ego by constant 24/7 torment that is indescribable but have to try the best I can to give people the insight to the twilight zone existence I would be subjected to as of this posting 7-21-13 three long years. I just stared at my screen that had shut down waiting with anticipation; didn't last longer then 5 minutes but seemed at the time an eternity.  I was so blind to the nightmare that I would be subjected to, all because I was in total disbelief to what I was witnessing when my hacker named Sherman was hacking his way & ended up taking total control of my devices - ALL because I was too naive to believe this only happens to other people, NOT ME. Maybe a Lifetime movie? Yes, Sherman's intrusive way of formally introducing the EVIL that exists with technology when put into the hands of evil. It had been only a matter of time, with all the strange things that had been occurring for a couple of months now. I don't remember the date but remember it was in April 2010... When my screen opened back up, my name no longer was the only one that existed as a user profile. In fact, Sherman took over Admin Rights & ironically chose the chess game piece logo with his name... Sherman.  I thought my mind or eyes were playing a cruel joke.  But it was far from funny and it wouldn't be the ONLY time 'Sherman' would appear as his way of stating, Check Mate. Technology, as I once knew it, would forever be changed. Hindsights 20/20 & I could continue to punish myself for what seems obvious to me now, disconnect EVERYTHING. Too late. I was a complete idiot & so naive that the Game had just begun. A very evil game that blindsided me and came to find out NO ONE was capable of making Sherman go away... I fell right into what appeared to others as , 'Off her Rocker' 'Unstable', the 'Crazy' Sherman had planned for, I can only assume, pure entertainment for him because THEY LACKED THE KNOWLEDGE TO HELP ME ESCAPE MY NEW REALITY. Insanity became my reality and all I knew I had to find a way to escape it.  Someone would help me... Right? I would find out that no such resources exist. The more I tried the more I felt myself slipping away.... Falling in a downward spiral where I could find no foundation to plant my feet and feel grounded.  Had to be a nightmare, where I would wake up to the Reality as I once knew it. What a cruel, disturbing world this can be. But I had always been a fighter... I didn't get this far in life with ALL THE DRAMA I had been subjected to without fighting my way through it until I always succeeded in what has gotten me through all the UGLY... That good conquers evil! Sherman's goal was to break me. He was the bad guy. I would find a way to CONQUER this too! Or would I? WHO? WHY? One more chapter in my book... 

9/29/13

Journal Entry 10/12/11 3 weeks after purchase of Brand New MacBook Air/iPad & IPhone Compromised

Journal Entry 10/12/2011
Well... Alrighty now - living on little sleep but accomplished something so BIG that was so fricken right there at the click of a button. Got my iPad replaced yesterday. Tried to contact Erin from Apple Technical support; left 2 messages & tried calling a couple more times to inform her that the new Sims card did not FIX my iPad (and again, I had so much hope when the AT&T rep replaced my sims card & the 1st thing I had him do was input the email that had prompted all my most recent calls to Apple in addition to an alien seizing my MAC. And it went through, without a hitch. Good sign > new sims card; that was a 1st for my iPad & the one problem seemed to be fixed... Too good to be true - my favorite motto - but had no choice that something new could be the answer to all the mystery (lack of knowledge actually) of getting the error 'wrong UN/password' over & over again ... Errrrrrrrrr - fixed. All the technical support out there with 4 different Internet providers and I - TONIGHT - figured out the 'fix' to that ongoing error I have had for 1 1/2 years now - WOW! Seriously? I'm sure it will be short lived but the more I explore Apple products the more I love them. It is amazing to me with all the 'hacking' you hear out there & how simple it really is to do that I have been subjected to such devastation & total turmoil. Okay so I'm thrilled that I once again stumbled across a mystery to everyone else that I have talked to about the wrong UN/Password issue - one way to fix it... How? My iPhone that has a hotspot connection capability & my wifi printer were not working the way they should... Something did not add up. My brand new iPad was also on at the time & started acting possessed AGAIN - this soon? Think, think, think. Untrusted site/connection when I went into HP printers website on my iPad & then on my iPad - same error. Hmmm mmm. Purely by coincidence I Printed out network status from my new printer & my iPad started acting just like the one I just had replaced last night... SETTINGS > GENERAL > RESET... NETWORK SETTINGS. I stumbled across it on the printer then on my iPad then iPhone and VOILA - the error I have been a victim to & misunderstood by technical support (that's why I believe my calls had to be rerouted with the million of calls I've made to help me make sense of being able to populate an email on the Internet but continued to get the never ending error when putting in the exact info into the mail client... to only create an error that my password was incorrect. Chalked it up to dealing with idiots, rerouted calls, or I was actually going crazy. I just kept questioning myself - with everything I have been through in my past & still managed to keep my sanity - why NOW 50 - 52 years later would I actually become CRAZY? Paranoid... Yes, but for obvious reasons - logical? Absolutely NOT! Does a real Crazy person know their crazy? I don't think so... Although, I most definitely had my doubts at tines... But knew better. It would be more sane to believe that I really wasn't sane after all. Ahhhhh... but I am & have to deal with the insanity that has been inflicted on me for so long now. I've actually tried to convince myself that I am crazy so All This INSANITY would make sense... Mission accomplished but need specialists (cyber crime unit?) to help me put all this to an end. The insanity I have been subjected by ‘my’ hacker named Sherman, is the reality that I can't get people who are experts in this field to help me. My current locations have populated over 5 different states besides where my actual location is. This is not one person doing this... Again, I can’t be the only person this is happening to & my story needs to reach out to those that are victims as I am entering this one victory I can put a bandaid on for now but what's next?


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PopUp Window from Hacker using Hashtag I use with Twitter @StalkedByHacker Account

Tweeted 1-13-13 from @TheOnlyChristie acct since @StalkedByHacker was down at that time
iPhone pop up yesterday from Instagram w/ hashtag I use #KeepItREAL, by my hacker, Sherman, GRIEFER who has been in hiding for quite awhile. Just a few minutes ago the reply I sent to him just popped open from the App I had saved it in... Again, another way of letting me know 'Sherman's' back! Like I ever really thought you left! Apple knew you would be back & you took a hiatus before just to create more CYBERterror. Really pathetic, but apparently wants me to share my response >What a coincidence that my account @StalkedByHacker just abruptly stopped working, assuming again, suspended and I was unable to put a support ticket in by the Hacker's handy dandy magic by good ol pop up errors not accepting my UN cuz it said I had used wrong characters. So funny. Didn't expect me to be able to find another resource to do it, huh? Surprise on you! Fuck off you nuisance, you are seriously a bore. Here's what the hacker just popped open on my iPhone when I was no where near it... Get a life 'Sherman'
1-13-13
#KeepItREAL is a powerful phrase that comes from the heart! I know now that one's reality can test you into believing otherwise. God's strength is too real & I refuse to let my pain to join forces to what I know 1st hand the pain & suffering that caused whoever is the one responsible so much hurt at some point & became too weak to keep believing that good does exist & in a sense a victim who stopped believing so gave up, exactly the way Satan had planned. They lost the ability to keep believing & how to #KeepItREAL. When People are struggling, it's Satans victory. So he used something I loved so much, technology, then used it against me in such an evil invasive way to try & pull me to his world. Good exists in everyone. Some lose their way, others turn back because God's work is never done. He never gives up on anyone. #KeepItREAL & Believe. Miracles happen through a higher power that only exists of good. I believe. Life is good. >>> #KeepItREAL is a hashtag I use with the Twitter UN @StalkedByHacker that took me over 6 months to create, so when it mysteriously popped open just showing #KeepItREAL for no logical reason, I had to assume that my hacker, Sherman was behind it and wrote the above paragraph regarding it that popped open by itself on my iPhone, just one of many ways to remind me that I have no privacy with technology but have gotten used to it and thought I would share an exchange I had with my Hacker who has been tormenting me since 3/2010.

X-Husband Haunting me from the dead?

2-10-13 Tweet (Added some additional statements today toward the end 3-4-13) but had tweeted from my @StalkedByHacker Twitter account which continuously keeps getting suspended... Going on 8 times as of the other day) Have another account > @TheOnlyChristie ~~ Follow Me! ...
And now that I have to accept the fact that my hacker is on a twisted ego trip... Comes and goes. Just to make sure I don't forget him I guess - Whatever - He has relentlessly had a necessity to 'show off' all his black magic for so long, I don't even know (sometimes) if it's the hacker up to his old voodoo or IF it just MAY BE a fluke with technology! That's so deranged but I guess part of his strategy. I know earlier I got a pop up (which I have popups blocked but it is what it is) and ZoomPower requested I do a survey for my Twitter use. Real? Maybe. ALL the BOGUS sites my hacker would set me up to fall for hook, line and sinker just to set me up for 'Sherman's' voodoo to inflict more questions then answers on HOW, WHY, & WHO the hell?? I guess if I actually knew who the WHO was, would help answer the WHY? Maybe? Well my XHusband stalked me for years & all I know is me & my kids had to stay in hiding for our safety so when he dropped dead suddenly which was no surprise, just glad it was him & not us, but I thought I had found peace finally. He always did threaten me, If I can't have you, nobody can...can evil spirits become tech Savvy? He had said on a few occasions that he would fake his death then finish me off when I least expected it. The things I have witnessed & been subjected to seem UNREAL, as in 'That's not possible' to the mind of a logical person which I never had a problem facing whatever reality was thrown my way... But my hacker's goal was to try and drive me insane. The closest I got was to question my own sanity time & time again that I may just have to accept that this chapter of my life may not give me the closure I need and the answers to prevent this Twilight Zone existence from ever happening to anyone else. I was one to ALWAYS fix any 'wrong', 'evil' obstacles that came my way and thought justice would be served & SOME law agency would come to my rescue... not the case. And because the 'hacker' has gotten away with tormenting since 3/2010 & no one to turn to, although since accomplishing creating a Twitter account, the Hacking Griefer seems to have backed off compared to what he was doing but He has done that before, when I first moved from MD to FL to only appear a 2nd time as 'Sherman' as a profile who stole Admin Rights on my brand new Apple MacBook Air, just to prove a point that although not controlling my mouse anymore on my devices, including my cell, which he had done before I had an iphone, on my LG ALLY smartphone, he was still corrupting EVERYthing I owned technology wise... yes, printers too; 4 total & as far as I know, stalking me obviously. Having no one to turn to & constant fear of the all the CYBER terror he has gotten away with has literally affected me to such a degree, I am no longer the person I used to be before ALL this CYBER ABUSE (Stalking). It makes you feel so vulnerable to an unimaginable degree.

All I can do is put it in Gods hands AND believe that Good still does exist even if it comes down to not give in to believing otherwise. #StopCyberTerror. #LovePeaceUnity

1st Twitter Follower - Threat by Hacker

2-15-13
Check out how 'Elisabeth' has 0 Followers, 0 Tweets & Following 0 people. After all the torment my hacker has put me through, of course, I'm thinking the Profile statement was a direct threat from my Hacker, Sherman, because he had turned everything into like a game to him by not letting me create a Twitter account. I just kept being persistent then one day for whatever reason, after over 6 months of trying, when it seemed I had actually succeeded, @StalkedByHacker, seemed more then appropriate to create as my UN. Of course I didn't have a clue how Twitter worked & it took quite awhile to get the hang of it. Seems, as if, I continue to learn something new about it every day. All I knew, I believe it was my my iPhone that I had succeeded to being able to create the account on after creating another one by a name I had come up with when a tech from Best Buy in MD had trouble & took several times before being able to set up my very 1st iPad for me since the hacker had made it impossible for me to do from my parents house or my house. I recall the Tech stating she had never come across such strange behavior from an iPad and she was one who had mentioned to me that I would probably have to change my identity, including social security #, since at that point it was very obvious my identity had been stolen, of course, having no clue the hacker would be so persistent in following to FL, to a 3rd then 4th new address I had moved to since the 1st location of the hacker intrusion.

All I knew, I was finally going to - hopefully - be able to vent to the world about my stalking hacker. It couldn't hurt & I knew it was a big 'IF'. Yes, Sherman, my hacker definitely made it almost impossible for me to type the 140 characters I had so anxiously had been waiting to do for quite awhile. In fact, he made it very difficult for awhile and I would just submit whatever I had managed to type from either my iPad or iPhone even WITH all the typos & some tweets looking Chinese but as time went on & ALL the porn and very odd people (the Hacker being plenty of the UNs I came across) I have pretty much have been more free to use technology then I've been able to since 3/2010! The only problem I keep coming across is my passwords continuously getting changed by Hacker where I have to reset it, mostly to my FB & Twitter but I am still going through BS with my MacBook Air that I still am unable to use & have been dealing with that since I bought it 9/2011.

May not be able to use a PC but after much persistence had my iPads & iPhones replaced each a few times but had also been promised by Apple to get my MacBook Air replaced which hasn't happened yet. But thank God for Apple. otherwise. If it hadn't been for Apple I would never had been able to get the proof that I have managed to do so & I believe Sherman is always going to be lurking & stalking me but NOW in hiding until he can find another opportunity to try and do one of his voodoo black magic Cyber terror pounces when he thinks I am least expecting it...

Pic of my 1st Follower with my account @StalkedByHacker that I've managed to hold onto miraculously... Read the profile > a taste of 'Sherman's' terror...

@StalkedByHacker Suspended the 6th time

Still believe Good Conquers evil. It's disturbing that vultures feast on the broken and weak but don't mistaken kindness for stupid. Look forward to the feast. Fuck off. God bless.

I came across the above quotation on my iPad and recall it being so much longer & was actually a response I had made (not what's above exactly) but much longer & descriptive. When I copied it to Blog about it on my iPad and opened the App up to paste it, of course, I got an error where I was unable to do so. Then it auto went to log into it as if I had never logged into it before to go to my blogspot. I had just finished transferring over info re: ALL the support tickets I have had to submit to Twitter because I just had to submit another one & wanted ALL info on my iPad & iPhone for reference to be the same. My twitter account @StalkedByHacker has been suspended 6 times which makes no sense. I understand the 1st time it happened because I had been Following to aggressively which once I read the VERY vague policies understood that's against their policies. But the next 5 times - I am clueless as to why. I do know that I have definitely experienced some very strange people which I guess is to be expected but will paste copies of the very interesting interactions I have had with Twitter world, the first Follower being an Elisabeth Aldo who had 0 Followers, 0 Following AND 0 tweets but the profile read "I will Fucken destroy you" period. A bit odd! Of course everything I have been subjected to with all of the Hacker's voodoo black magic tricks and since it took me at least 6 months to even be able to create an account because of continuing compromising by 'Sherman', of course I questioned if that was intended as a direct threat from my hacker or what. I got several odd Followers & obviously blocked them & it never failed when I did a search on a specific one, they no longer existed. I was always dissecting their profiles & taking note of the amount of tweets, followers & Following cuz it always seemed the account had just been created for whatever reason. But when you have been subjected to the HELL that the FBI, local police and Cybercrime unit are all aware of but have yet to help me crucify & bring justice to the 'network' that I believe has been behind ALL the crazy since Sherman 1st appeared on my Dell laptop in 4/2010 & remotely accessed me on EVERY cell & PC before I made the move from MD (where it occurred) to FL. Now when I say remote accessing, I am telling you SOMEONE was controlling what I could and could not to on my devices & controlled my mouse etc. believe me when I say this, YOU KNOW WHEN YOU HAVE NO CONTROL over a device using technology. Sherman made it a point to even go to the extreme of remote accessing & controlling my mouse at 2 different libraries that were an hour away from each other AND somehow knew to be waiting for me at my parents house when I logged into their PC & logged into their Verizon account on line so I could JUST accomplish what the police in MD told me I needed to do by reporting my hacker to www.ic3.gov, which he had managed to prevent that from happening on a brand new laptop I bought after the Sherman appearance on my Dell, 2 different libraries then at my parents house. It was beyond logical. Reality as it had once existed for me before the hacker is anything but REAL but those are the facts. I finally succeeded when I drove another hour farther from my parents to my son's house & his wife did it for me on her iPad. That's how I got introduced to Apple . From the time the police said that was my only option in April 2010, it wasn't until July 5, 2010 that my daughter-in-law succeeded to submitting what I thought was a crime of being stalked & someone intentionally making no secret that I no longer had the freedom to use technology that everyone just takes for granted. It didn't do any good except the 4th LG android that got replaced was no longer being remotely accessed shortly before my move to FL. New cell, another brand new PC and I made the mistake to think I was in the free & clear of ALL the torment that was nonstop up to the point of getting the FBI involved. But the Griefer at that point had decided to stay in cognito until the whopping CYBERterror that blindsided me again. The weird part is, I never really thought he just went away. I had a hunch that he was still lurking just waiting for the right time to prove to me I was powerless over a coward who stays in hiding physically who obviously is a very sick individual but kept telling myself I was being paranoid. Yep, strange things kept happening, kept buying new PCs, cells, printers because of corruption that continued to possess my technology. But as for twitter, time before last, I was unable to submit a support ticket on my iPad because of what I call Hacker BOGUS errors that I have grown so accustomed to but will never get over the fact that after 'Sherman' appeared a 2nd time on my most recent purchase - Apple MacBook Air that the FBI claims it must be someone I know & since no money has been stolen it should be up to the police, who I have gone to on 7 or 8 different occasions to only tell me they don't have the resources to stop this evil network from their despicable intrusive actions.
Back to Twitter... I had to have my sister submit to Twitter support. Last time, from all devices (I think it was the famous fictitious websites the hacker enjoys toying with me with) I could never receive a reply like the previous times with 3 different emails I included for them to respond to that I had used previously so finally used entirely new one that FINALLY got the reply notification & I was up and running again. This time same compromising - I was unable to input my UN @StalkedByHacker & in the phone number box I literally put 'what's the point' followed by my phone number and figured what the hell, might as well use the StalkedByHacker email I used previously and it actually submitted. No user name, phone number NOT, BUT received an acknowledgement reply to an entirely different email then what I gave them. Odd? Paranoid? It just doesn't make any sense. I have fallen prey to so many fictitious emails & websites that totally screwed me & don't know what to do. I have almost 7,000 followers, which is another odd thing, my account is 'suspended', can't use it, can't even pull it up through my other account @TheOnlyChristie; it just just says 'no such account' so how am I receiving email notifications of continuing Followers during this whole time as recent as an hour ago? This is where I can hope to get through to people the 'CRAZY' that I have lived going on 3 years now. Please ALWAYS shutdown, AFTER disabling Internet connection and unplug anything to the modem/router. As for the first quote above? I am more thorough to have written something so deep without giving it a proper title or where I used it at and WHY was it opened to such a confound statement just waiting for me to read?
I am tired. Hopefully tomorrow in a separate blog I can share the Elisabeth Profile that I believe is a direct threat intended to me by my hacker and the more then interesting ones that they claim they know who my hacker is...
God Bless. Peace Out.